We Are NOT Bad Bitch Culture.. We Are WOMEN POWER Culture!
When I first thought of the idea for María’s Mentiras to be a lifestyle brand, I wanted to emphasize on Women Power. And what I mean by that is I wanted to give the women or men that read my blog their power back. I wanted to let it be known that no matter how far you fall into this rock bottom pit of lies and mistakes you could always find the strength and have the time to get back up. It is never too late to realize that the lies we tell ourselves aren’t as precious as the truth we could be living.
For years I was told that I would never change, I even told myself I’d never change but I did. I put in the work. I put in the effort. I shed blood, sweat and tears so that I would never go back to the old me. I’m not going to sit here write some stupid lie of an article and tell you it’s going to be easy. That there won’t be days where you just want to quit and be done with everything.
Some days I don’t want to pay my bills. Some days I don’t feel like putting in any effort at all. Some days I don’t even want to get out of bed. I think to myself “screw it, we’re all going to die anyway, I’m just a waste of space.” But you know what, I stopped listening to that voice in my head telling myself that I’m not worthy. Sure I still hear it but I choose not to listen. I choose not to stay in bed, I choose not to kill myself over little trial problems in my life and I choose to pay my bills because I want that better future I keep dreaming about.
People tell me all the time that people don’t change but that’s not true. People that think they’re fine the way they are never change. But the people that hate every waking minute of their mundane lives and would rather die than breathe for another moment, change the very second that they are ready to change. Believe me I know.
Back when I was in high school I was so angry at everything. Angry at my parents for putting my mentally disabled sister on a pedestal and treating me like dirt. Angry at my school for kicking me out instead of bothering to try and help me with my depression. Angry at people in general for not being angry and living what I perceived as perfect lives. Angry at the world for making me the way I was; angry and in need of love.
But one day everything changed, my whole out look on life did a full 180 in seconds. I woke up one morning and the first thing I saw was a ray of sunshine shining on me from my skylight and in that moment I decided I didn’t want to be angry anymore. I remember rolling off the bed on the opposite side that I had usually woke up from. Now looking back I think I might have just been waking up on the wrong side of the bed every morning. But there was something in that ray of sunshine that changed me.
I told my sister that I wasn’t mad at her anymore. I stopped picking fights for no reason just because I wanted to fight people. I still pick fights but now it’s at least for a reason. Back than I just wanted to fight, I had a lot of pent up anger that needed to be released. That morning looking up at my skylight all that anger I held inside was finally released. But of course I still get anger, I’d be lying if I said I didn’t. I’m only human. Human beings get angry and we get sad. We get lonely. And at times we may even lose hope but we should never lose our drive.
Don’t ever stop working towards being the best you can be. It’s okay not to be okay, just don’t let that sadness stop you from doing what’s best for you. Because there’s is so much more to life and so much you can do in this world. There’s no need to ever doubt yourself. And if you ever do, remind yourself everything you’ve been threw and tell yourself “I am still here, I am still alive, I am a strong and independent woman/man, and I can get threw anything life throws at me.”